Cathead

Hey Buddy! 

Hey Mister!  

Cat #1.

Somehow I knew it had been a year without really knowing it.  Hard to believe.  Some passed time has made it easier to remember you before you were sick.  

I don't feel like I did a good job of mourning or saying goodbye. It was just too painful and I had to shut it out for a while.  

I had the house painted and new carpet put in.  Painted over the spots on the walls that you had rubbed up against and stains you left on the carpeting. It felt like I erasing you. 


I have known for a while that I needed to have a great big cry and spent some time thinking about you.  How weird is it that I did this one year later. 


Sometimes at night I can still feel you nestled in my armpit. 


I don't miss waking up to you biting my nipples. 


But I miss you.  


















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